Loved your blog. Can identify so much. You sound like a strong character. My story is different inasmuch as I didn’t achieve any sort of worldy success. The beginning of my indoctrination into the aa cult ruined my 30s and 40s. Trying to account for a 20 year cv gap is pretty hard. The 12 step programming pretty much finished me off as a going concern. The first bullies in my life were my parents so by the time aa had finished with me, I was suicidally depressed. Like yourself, I know I’m a good person but I didn’t have any spirit left to fight by the time I reached my 20s. Today is a different story though. I’m too intelligent and honest with myself to get into any “blame games” and my life today is good. I’ve never felt so happy and I have real hope for improving my situation and prospects. As an artist there is plenty I can be doing and I’m going to bloody well enjoy it now that I’m free from all the bullshitting bullies and bastards I have known and hated. Thanks again Harry.