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Thats the hapiness of being employeed I mean. I dont Zen that much these days. As I have mentioned many times before on the blog, I am back on the “new jersey blue collar” plan of action.

Act with Honor and fucking destroy anyone that interfers with your life.

I had a good 12 to 14 years of fulltime 12 step living. And before that it was a good 16 years of the above NJ rule of conduct. HANDS DOWN, the New jersey Blue Collar rule of conduct brought me a good life.

So let’s talk about how the NJ Rule helped me stay with the NEW JOB! By the way, have I mentioned I LOVE this new job? Well I do. In fact the only thing better than the job I do is the people I work for. GREAT PEOPLE. I love these fucking people. Kind of people I would want as neighbors or inlaws.

Now before I get to this job - let me remind you of this early posting about the job I had WHEN I got sober. Had I remembered the rules of conduct that got me to College, So Cal and then to that corporate job in the first place, I would have likely not ever had lost the job.

Or I would have at least made some serious 6 digit cash out of the wrongful termination case.

But no, at that time, I was thé AA foot soldier. Living the life of “One day at a time” and “Trust God”. Hopping up on that cross when ever life struck me down…….

Thank God I dont play that bullshit any more! Because there was an situation developing at the new job that could have easily resulted in my being fired from that job. And had I still been on the “Oh please let me be thy humble suffering servant again” plan - that is exactly what would have happened.

At the new job, there was the contractor guy who was suppose to teach me the system he worked on for the company. But instead of trying to teach me the system, he worked to make it look as though he was teaching me but I wasnt able to learn it. And at first, I fell for it. This guy knew his shit about SQL etc and I wasnt catching on to his explanations. Maybe I have been gone from programming for too long and I lost my touch?

But that only lasted for the first few weeks. At first, it was just my gut telling me something is wrong about this guy. By the way - this is big - write this down - LEARN TO TRUST YOUR OWN GUT FEELINGS. Never mind this fucking praying bullshit or “asking the guys at the meeting” bullshit. You trust the same guy that helped you get out of the shit upbringing - YOUR SELF. ( You stick with the one ya brung to the dance! ) So anyway, like I said it was just a gut feeling this guy was not quite right. But I didnt know SQL at the level he did so there was a lot of what he said that I had to admit I just didnt follow.

But as the days added up to weeks, I did begin to learn the system itself - if not the actual code that runs it. I began to understand the process that was being automated. And the front end was written in VB6 which is something I did for 5 years so I relearned that very quickly.

I began to ask detailed questions - and some of those where phrase as a “Can you confirm the following is a correct summation?” sort of question. And you know what? HE COULDN’T! I finally caught him!

Not only did he not know the answer - but he pretended to know the answer and he pretended to correct me because it was clear to him I was again mistaken. He did this EVERY TIME I asked a question. From the beginning day to the day I ripped him apart in front of the deptment supervisor, this guy pulled this shit on me. And he always made sure to do so in an out loud voice in ear shot of my co-working and of the supervisor.

ALL TO MAKE HIM LOOK GOOD. To prolong his contracted work. Perhaps even to remove me from the job so that the task of replacing me would begin. No personal dislike going on here. This guy wasnt out to get me - he just did what he always did - he bullshited the client so that he got himself more weeks of work. And he IS VERY GOOD at this. Its the one thing positive I can say about an otherwise lowlife person - he speaks with absolute confidence.

Now the first few times I caught him doing this shit to me, I tried to let him know I KNEW WHAT WAS GOING ON. I tried to give him an opportunity to knock it off before I tell the boss or punch him in the face or both. But either he was too stupid or again, he is so good at bullshit that he never ignores the goldenrule - deny deny deny.

In any case, we reached the line in the sand - and he crossed it. There were logic mistakes in his new fixes and he said to me - outloud and in front of the boss - “This is happening because you forgot to do X y And Z………………..”

And then in a loud and threatening voice (in front of the supervisor) I ripped him apart; I told him I knew exactly what happened - that he was the one who did this and then I disclosed all the details of how he over the last few months was bullshitting me everything I asked a question. And Iwarn him to not even think about doing shit like that again.

12 Step Harry would have been too humble to do that. In fact I would have been sure it was me at fault. yeah - again write this down - FUCK THAT THINKING. god nor bill n bob for that matter want you to be a fucking lamb for the slaughter to any asshole who wishes to profit on your demise. BUT AA WANTS THAT. Got to be a Martyr for the fellowship…….

I Knew I was right. I knew I was not trying to steal or cheat the company. I knew this guy was up to no good. And I didnt second guess myself. This guy was trying to fuck me and I ripped him a fucking part in front of the boss. And I gave the boss the FACTS of what happened - never once softening my argument with “I think he is”, or ” I suspect he is”.

No, he IS DOING THAT. And I will beat him like a fucking dog if he does it again. Because I am a good guy, and honest person, an intelligent and eager employee. And not anyone’s prop for the crusifiction de jur.

That happened a month ago. And things are going great at the new job. I feel more confident and at ease at the workplace than ever before. Because I was right about what I said was happening. And the boss and his boss both beleive me and they do not so much trust that lowlife contractor. This happened because I did not lay down, ala The 12 steps, but instead I stood up for myself. I followed the New Jersey Rule of Conduct.

ACT with Honor. And destroy all those who would fuck with your life.
Amen

Still Sober as of 1:30pm Sunday Aug 12 2007
This is harry A. saying good bye for now…….